i woke up with nithyasree screaming on the radio-yeah ,mom knows that surely wakes me up . that or worse, aatthify her steaming morning kaapi next to a sound asleep me! she was listening to the maid's lengthy petition for an evening off. like every other maid, she has an alcoholic husband. she wanted to go to this self declared god-man at the temple who promised to cure the problem for a few hundred rupees( be assured these notes are also going to find their way to the bottle). and mom, was fighting a losing battle, asking her not to waste her hard earned money on such stupid endeavors- "naa sollraennu thappa nenaikkadha, indha madhri kuri sollradhu, parihaaram pannradhhu idhellaam poi, pitthalattam. summa josiyamnu kaasa kariyaakkadha".

it's not uncommon a scene, considering that the alcoholic hasn't changed a bit in the last ten years. and our maid missed no god man all these years! i went to the kitchen and switched off the radio, knowing that mom's not going to realize it at all... the maid left in a few minutes and mom was yet to realize the absence of the blare.

i was having breakfast when mom came out of the bedroom, all dressed and said she was taking my horoscope to the astrologer to ask him if it was advisable for me to take up the G.R.E!! i gave her a look that said it all... and sang "naal en seiyum, vinaidhaan en seiyyum, naadi vandha kol en seiyyum, kodum koottren seiyum..." on top of my voice, behind the morning paper. another failed effort... even the alcoholic had greater chances of quitting but try talking to mom about forgetting josiyam n jadakam- you'll then know the meaning of the word impossible!

i locked the doors after mom left, came back to the table and was thinking of these hopeless people! cha, nenju porukkudhillaiyae indha nilai ketta manidharai kandu... was the next song in line! sigh, forget it, i told myself and came back to the newspaper to finish reading my star forecast for the day!

Consumed by insanity

depressed, suicidal, paranoid... for no apparent reason... ever been thro that kind of a phase?!
here i am, all consumed by insanity!
there was this friend who commented bout the infrequency of updating my blog,so here i am...
i started this blog inspired by this chronic blogger of my brother and well ... looks i can't keep pace!!!

murphy--the yaman!!

final year of college...yeah, i have survived 3 yrs of ee-adicchaan-copy assignments, gossip lab sessions, countless o.d's for chatting senselessly in de library under de pretext of proof-reading newsletters,writing or reviewing articles ...
and now, am left with nothing to do!!!first, we don't bother doing assignments,take down or pretend to take down notes, don't need o.d to bunk classes....hmmm, we ve finally grown up indeed!
come to think of it, de only activity i engage myself with that's worth mentioning is kadalai varutthufying...n murphy decides to play yaman there!!read on to find out how...
it was one of those days...when i happened to spot this guy i'd been lookin at for quite sometime. i had just alighted de bus n he was walking right in front of me..a few yards between us. i could almost smell his cologne..aaaaaaaah,heady!!!!!de ecstacy lasted just a second ...n i realized that i was lookin my worst(4 those who think i'm no different,be it a look-good-day or a bad-hair-day, u re courteously requested to leave de pg ).
it was one of those crazy sleep-over nights with my lowes, we were up all night chatting bout guy after guy after this friend's sister's boyfriend's cousin's fizzled romance...n de like...u know wat conversation goes on in an all girls party!!and finally when we hit de sack, it was perhaps 3 or 4 a.m. . after mom's frantic wak-up calls and with bout 15 minutes,8 seconds to spare...i rushed to de bus stop...that'd give u a fine impression of my appearance that day!
as if this wasn't enough, i caught up with my lost sleep in de bus...
and sigh, this guy was right there... i couldn't even hazard a hi or a wave at him :(
why does it so happen that i spot such a guy only on a bad-hair-day??damn murphy!
anyway, neither could i muster enough courage to wave at him nor could i just let him glance at me in that kolam...
i trudged behind him,making myself as inconspicuous as possible...tough task actually,given my height.i didn't ve de heart to lose sight of him either...n hence i jus followed him, took a circuitous route to class...thanks to de melee, i'd lost a few calories more...
and finally entered my class...am still lamenting over de loss of that fine chance!!

i know it's been a really long time since i've filled these pages...but then, i badly needed this sabbatical!
even now, i don't know why i 'm here...
i ve a feeling i'm going maniacal.
so, let me attempt a journey back to sanity by trying to come up with something meaningful...

let me analyse the top things ppl do on orkut:
1) spy on ex-boyfriend's present or past girlfriend.
2) spearhead communities 4 some supposedly awesome n hot topics like...don't hit me...for pink sandals n blue laces.
3) forced to write testimonials 4 ppl cos they've written one 4 u.
4) get tired telling ur 240th unmet acquaintance(sigh, damn courtesy cos that makes u accept friend requests 4m these ppl) about ur kulam,gothram,education,taste,preferences(damn courtesy again!) and de moron never really understands that u r not interested.
5)ward off friend requests 4m these weird profile names, you go to their profile n it's full of porn communities!u swear out loud ,delete their scraps n reject their friend requests...only to find that the pervert scraps u back...or some one else follows suit.
6) very rarely, u start kadalai varutthufying with this really really awesome n intelligent guy...n sigh, he says he's committed!
and ppl like me still find reason to spend all day orkutting!

happenings...

Well, i've been home 4 a long time now...over a month,i guess! Thanks to that, i've become addicted to orkut! i wake up with orkut..., eat,sleep n drink orkut.My arm's kind of fine and know what, i've become ambi-dextrous!!

Folks, did u all notice any changes since karunanidhi's swearing in?
Route boards on buses now display Kalaignar nagar, instead of k.k.nagar!
Wonder if the change'll be reflected elsewhere too...
The reservation issue seems to be rocking the nation, but we tamilians have come to terms with it long back,i guess... We've learnt to live with it!
Its a joke- few communities have more seats than the number of takers!
How do you justify reservation in the case of post graduate courses , especially in medical and engg. streams?? when they've "enjoyed equal exposure to quality education" and other such oft-quoted status phrases, during under grad...
I heard someone on screen argue in favour of reservation , saying , o.c candidates don't really stay to serve the nation after they complete their studies -they just leave abroad... why'd they, if offered equal opportunity here?
However noble the intentions behind reservation might be, the point they're driving to the masses is:
"Whether u bother to study or not, we'll take care of u- just offer u seats".
It is a joke indeed!

and the c.m is...

lights off, reaction... all drama's over! party manifestoes in dump yards, cho n naresh gupta forgotten for a while,lok paritran gearing up for the next state, admk licking its wounds... sigh, with a broken arm, unable to do much,ndtv and cnn-ibn offered me all the company i needed the past few weeks ! am going miss all that action,i guess!
or is it the grand opening of more intense drama? the scrapping of all "schemes" started by the admk,restarting of uzhavar sandhais... i wonder what's going to happen to the yearly elephant rejuvenation camp! what next? an embargo on temple elephants? and then , there's the rain water harvesting scheme... now, i guess we'll be asked to demolish those structures and asked to contribute towards desalination projects!!
maybe admk should have promised to do away with anna univ sem exams or better yet, should have sacked viswanathan ... that'd have been the winning strategy!
cut to the point, WHEN R THEY GOING TO ARREST JAYA?? and count the no. of kerchiefs she owns... they'd better start the count now, if they intend to know the final figure before their term ends!wonder if they'll arest n send jaya to mudhumalai along with her clan!
what's the reservation break up going to be like... ? the necessary criteria to get into anna univ- should have appeared for the class 12 exams( no probs with failed candidates too!) and should be non-fc!!
and here i am, typing away endlessly and u folks reading these senseless lines when we 've got to demand for our free tv sets!

firsts...

there's always something emotional about ur firsts... that make u smile afterwards, that make u jot it down in your diary... And if u've broken ur writing arm like me,u'll transcend to starting ur blogspot! so, that clearly explains y this tech-challenged female has finally entered the bloggers club!
coming back to firsts..., on monday i voted 4 the first time in my life!!! and since then, been proudly flashing my left index finger at everyone who cares to stop by and enquire about my arm!
i've finally participated in the country's democratic system. i nod my head with pensive expressions,offer suggestions unsolicited(i.e.,repeat whatever cho ramaswamy says on screen,only to find that the others faithfully quote burkha,rajdeep or ram!!) when people discuss politics, i justify my presense there,licensed by the indelible ink!
i look back in my life ( every single detail journalled in my bulky diary!). every first has been carefully recorded- first watch,first crush, first drive,first saree, first day in college...
and i wonder if its the same for everyone!
and out of habit,i reach for my diary to write down about my first blog post and only then do i realize that my right elbow is fractured!